tired weekend

hmm..so i went back to Ipoh last thursday after i received the call..

and i never been free since then..

i went back and went to the funeral centre and stay there for whole day..

and on the saturday..everything was over..

hmm..is tiring..but is a memory...

not to say a sweet memory..but an unforgetable memory..

nothing much to talk about the funeral..

the purpose to blog today is more to express my feelings..

im not in good mood for few days...

one of the reasons was my great grandma..

i miss her..and i feel bad that i never see for the last time before she close her eyes..

im sorry laoma.....

another thing..i found out..

i really dont like that 'aunty'..

she's just so annoying...

and...im not sure whether she treat herself as a him or a her..

she's damn annoying....

ppl asking 3 man to stand in front..

and i really dont understand what's the purpose she's standing in front..

and what she did just never show any respect to the families..

she's way to much to treat our family like that..!!!

i msg him that day..

and....how come a person can change so fast..

no more love and become hate...

how come..from loving..to cool..

is that the way to love someone..

and is that what i deserve...

i thought i can deserve better..but how come this is what i got at last..?
i agree with what he says..

its not end of world without him..

but does he know..the life is suffering..?

from the way he talks..from the way he explain..

does he know it hurts...and does he know........................................

it doesn't matter...

although i cant accept the fact..

but i'll let go..

and..i told him..no need come back to me..

but no matter how long..i'll still wait..

and i believe...he'll be back..

hopefully....

yen..no worry about me..

im ok..im really ok..

everyone also have something that they cant help.

and dont feel bad and sad about that..

it really doesn't matter ok?

i love you yen..

and thank you so much for your concern..

let's see some photos..

it doesn't look nice...

and is randomly uploaded..

this one took the week before...having dinner after jogging..

took this the week before also..and..i looks sleepy...that's how i look like after crying....

we have supper after the funeral..my mum in white and im in red..coz my greatgrandma was 103 years old..

the last day of funeral..breakfast before going out..

last night..having dinner at the restaurant beside 'breeze cafe'..love the toilet..

is air conditioned..and..i love the colour tone...

took this morning..it's wesak day and we went to the temple before i come back to kl..

i like the little buddha..is cute...

the candle..is nice right..? can you spot my name..?

so that's all for tonight...

hopefully i could get into sleep and be alright tomorrow morning..!