bleeding love

finally sat for the BMA test..
is not difficult as i expected..
can consider easy too..but whether i can score or not is another problem..
scared of my careless mistakes laa.....

so today saw him la..
but not dare to look at him..also dont know why..
i was in a good mood this morning...
not til my dad call me after the test..

all of a sudden..ask me change course..
medic..?
dentistries..?
can i cope with that..?
can i..?
moreover...studying in kl edi so scary..
how can i study alone in indo..?
should i go over there..?
or should i remain everything the same..?
any comment..??
hmm...really have to consider about it in more detail..

so...i thought im ok with everything..
as if so generous at first..
but when i reach home..
i dont know why..
laying on the bed..thought to get some sleep..
but...end up crying under the blanket..
*cant cry out loud..fatimah is in my house*
what he says might be true..chase for what i dream for and not for future income..
but..no income how to fulfill dream..?
let go....coz no take care..and..should i thank his grandmother for the advise..?

yea...i'll let go..
let go everything..
i mean..love stuff..
more concentrate on studies...chase for my income then only chase for my dream..
that is me..and forever no changes..(hopefully)....

i need jokes...need to laugh out loud..
i need someone to talk to..
but i couldn't find anyone..
i only can write out..hopefully..those who read this..dont get annoyed by me..
i just feel a bit bit lost in my life...at the moment..
will find a way out soon..

take care everyone..
im hereby wishing all of you out there...
forever wont get the chance to feel how the heart bleeds...