relink please

hey guys..
there's another blog of mine.
i might update there more often then this..
relink please..

http://melissa-anotherwolrldofmine.blogspot.com/

thank you..!!!

6-august
it's my birthday..
yea..celebrated in advance..
but this is the first time my family and my best buddy wasnt't by my side on my birthday..
and luckily there's someone willing to sacrifice his time and accompanied me the whole night..
thank you so much..
i've not updated my blog for so long as there's nothing much happen these few days..
and..
i've nothing much to talk about..
and oh ya.....

i miss you...!!!!

my birthday

i seriously love IPOH!
i celebrated my birthday in advance yesterday
let's see what happen last night

early in the morning,
i went out for breakfast and shop for the things that we need for the party,
i plan to have steamboat and bbq fot the night
so we bought a lot of things
have to thank mum and dad for making themselve busy for my party!
love you mum and dad...!!!
then..we do do do do till evening..
shirley came very early,
i haven even bathe when she arrive..hahaha..
so paiseh..
then i go and bath..then they help themselves..
as my house = their house XD

after bathing, all my friends arrive..
eh...i bath so long meh...wondering..!!
haha...
they gave me the present...
hohoho..i love it i love it..
thanks guys..
muacks muacks muacks muacks..
then go eat..play..eat..chat..and...eat..
then they drink...being force by my parents..
so there was a part where my mum pull me over to my friends
she asked them to wish me happy birthday..
and that's what she said

*you all haven wish her happy birthday? have to enjoy tonight as maybe she wont be around next year and you all might not have the chance to have fun like this anymore*

and when i heard that..
i was going to cry..but i wanted to control my tears..
is kinda sad to hear that..
i dont really want to leave....
i ngm sek dek you all...i really tak sampai hati...
friends..must remember me k?
and i promise i'l never forget bout you all...!!!

then we have cake-cutting ceremony
i got 2 cakes..one is from my grandma..
another is from my beloved friends!
chocolate indulgence and chocolate banana..!
i love it...it really taste good..especially the chocolate banana..
is really sweet and taste good..!!!
then..they leave one by one..
hmm..i think i left out many things..
anyway..it doesn't matter..
let see some pictures..

*i got few hundreds of ang pau!!!* *laughing non stop*

all the guests..dad's friend more than my friend...common case in my family!

mummy, me, sis, dad and sum yi(birthday on 1st August)


tada..chocolate indulgence and chocolate banana

szu mun, yin, me, sian, shir and yen

love you guys lots..muacks!!

back row(from left) : ck, sweetheart, soon ken and stezon
front row : szu mun, yin, me, sian, yen and shir

is a SEED purse from my aunty

a bag and a teddy from my friends,

thanks to sian, shir, yin, yen, shu chyi, ck?, kkj?, stezon?, soon ken?
i not sure who actually, anyway..thanks to everyone involve and i appreciate it lots...!!!

a shirt and a card far far from melbourne,

my sister who mail me this...thanks sis..

love.......

this is the invitation card that my sister prepare for me,

but sadly i tak sempat send it out..

thank you to all my friends,

and also my family,

and everyone who came to my party

thanks sian,

thanks yen,

thanks yin and shu chyi,

thanks shir and stezon,

thanks szu mun,

thanks soon ken,

thanks ck( really appreciate)

thanks sweetheart,

thanks for all the gift

thanks for giving me an enjoyable and unforgetable night

thank you

dream

i had a dream

dream of him

his hug

so tight

so real

and why is it just a dream

when awake

there's tears all over my face

i dont want dream

i want you

KL again~

hey guys
i'm back to KL again
starting my 2nd week of my 2nd semester
last week have an overview of all my subjects
and the first thing pop up my mind is that

~shit..! damn hard weh..! i'm sure i can't make it!~

but i got no choice
the only thing i can do is to work hard
i only have to stand this situation for 6 months more
then i'll be free
free from these subjects
free from some kind of friend
free from some kind of prob
free from some kind of tense situation
and free from many many other things


how to be free?
only a way
leave
leave to a place where no one knows you
leave to a place where you know no one
and start a very new life with just a person
and that only person will be my SISTER
yeah yeah...damn miss her now
so sad that have to wait for another half year only get to meet with her
sister..wait for me..i'll be there soon

was having a nap just now
suddenly heard the song 'ai mei' by rainnie
that's the song that woke me
that's the song that he used to sing to me
that's the song that send me to my dream almost every night
you know
i miss you
you'll never know
that i'm missing you every second
you know how sad am i when i still have to pretend in front of both of you
you know how hurt am i when i found out some lies behind
you know how i always mistaken sweetheart as gong
do you know how many times has that happened
do you know.......
i know you won't know
it's ok
heart

i dont know how to face you
i really got no idea how i will be when i see you the next time
can i still be like the same
putting up a smiling face

i found out many thing different from what i see and what i heard
i dont know others found out or not
but i just found out
maybe i'm the one thinking too much
i shouldn't take this so serious

you need someone
i know
but cant it be another someone?
why must it be someone that i mind?
i know you have lots of friend
and why must it be the someone?
i'm selfish..but do you think you're not?
maybe you think you aren't
you're just getting what you deserve
and letting go what you don't deserve
and maybe i'm the one getting jealous
i jealous i get everything when i lost everything
i jealous
so what
that's what a normal person should be
i might be a bit over in this case
but you couldn't blame on me
if you put this situation on you
you'll know how it feels
and how it hurts

trust

not updating my blog for so long..
so sorry..
been down to sick for almost a week..
im having serious flu and cough..
fever also come on and off...
pity me..
after consult doctor more dead..
cough more flu more..
aiks..
was wondering the ability of the doctor..
hahaha..

yea..am not in a good mood again..
found out something rediculous..
found out that i've trusted the wrong person..
found out that that person did many things behind me..
without i knowing anything..
and that another person knows everything..
but never tell me anything also..
luckily there's another person tell me everthing..
i love the thirst person most..

hmm..you all must have get confused..
but i just cant say much in here..
i just not syok..
i dont know why the 1st person did all these..
i really dont understand..
and i encourage myself to get the comfirmation from the 2nd person..
and the 2nd person admitted everything..
yea...im down..
but i still act like im nothing..
i feel myself very fake..
i dont know why..
i just know that i cant treat a friend this way..
and yea...i'll just try to forget about everything..
trying to......