happy + sad

first of all..
i want to wish my dear - Sook Foon

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!
actually her birthday was yesterday..
but i never blog yesterday so it became belated wishes...

i had a party last night,
at my friend(Phooi Sian)'s house..
it was an enjoyable night and i had fun with KKJ..
haha...love him damn much..he's just so funny!!!!
besides..i get to spend time with my buddies is the most important thing that night..
thank you guys...for bringing happiness to my life..
love you all lots..
muacks..!!!

last night and this morning..
i did something stupid..
i asked him the same question..
and i get the same answer..

last chance..??? NO WAY..!!!
*im not love you as last time*
*feelings change easily and fast*
*future..no future*
*no..*
*No*
*NO..!!!*
ok..answer and answers..
hurt and hurts..
injury and injuries..
what am i talking about..

*injuries that are hidden, will be the injury that never be cured...*
i just got that hidden injury..
no one notices..
no one sees..
yea..all those hurts..
but..im still waiting..
im waiting..

i think i shouldn't be expressing all these here.
but i got no one to talk to..
i got no one to ask..
i just wish to see him..
i will go wherever he goes..
as my hobby..and to fulfill my dreams..
next saturday suppose is my happiest day..
but i got no chance to have it..
im losing it..

anyway..sad thing..throw away..
*as if i can*
happiness will come to me..
*if there is miracle*

my dear friends...
i love you guys..
muacks..