absent

i'm tired with your absence
i'm tired with the absence of my friends
maybe i'm the absentee
but i really cannot bind with this kind of life
i wish i can do something now
to make me more happier
okey..i'm not unhappy
but i'm just...not happy


i wish i can be more selfish
think for myself more than others
i wish time can turn back
turn back to my happiest moment
when is my happiest moment?
that is when my love one is all around me


you choose to leave me when i needed you most
you choose to ignore me when i'm most unhappy
you choose to leave me alone when i'm lonely
you choose a road that i dont hope to take


my future my choice
your future your choice
but my happiness
is your choice
you let go my happiness
and that's the reason i'm in sadness now
i'm not blaming you
i really not blaming you
i respect the choice
i respect you


promises that have made
might not be fulfill
but it will remain in my mind
not to force you to fulfill
but to leave a memory for me


i dont know what happen
i'm just down
okey..i'm free
but no intension to do revision
i want to sleep
but i just woke


if i'm given the choice
(a) sleep forever
(b) face the reality
i'll choose to sleep forever
as i said before
no one in this world is perfectly happy
none of us do
i wish i can sleep forever
need not face the reality
need not worry people know my sadness
need not worry how to make people happy
need not think what is he doing now
you might think i'm wrong
but that is just what i hope


yen and sian
you sure will ask me not to think so much
no worries
i'm not thinking too much
i'm just expressing myself
in a wrong way maybe
but i love you all most


yin and shir
i most seldom contact with both of you
it might be my fault
as everyone of us is busy with our life
but i still miss our life together
i miss you
and i love you


ck..
i know you've leave
yea..
i should accept the fact
and that's the reason i can walk till this stage
thank you for giving me all the sweetest memory
my happiness come from the memory that i have
but i scared it will fade away soon
i'll keep it as hard as i can
i hope i can wait till you come back
i heart you