daddy's birthday

i went back to ipoh again
and it's my dad's birthday
27/6
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY

so we went dinner that night
and that's the restaurant
lousy restaurant
no 2nd time for me!!!
haha..
anyway...
i love the cake..
lemon cheese...
fyi..i bought it!!!
hahax...

hmm....
nothing detail to talk about
coz i left early that night
i went out with my friends
haha
such a bad daughter
daddy..i know you'll understand me..!!!

let me show you a photo
one photo is more than enough!!!
coz i look weird that night..!!!

family photo without my sister =(

today...29/7
melissa wong's birthday
Happy Birthday twin,
haha..that's what she used to call me

anyway..im bored of studying
im playing around the whole weekend
and i didn't study anything
haha..great!!!!
final exam tomorrow..
i'll pass that with FLYING COLOURS!!!!!!!!!!!


good luck mates..!!!

better in time

somehow i can't forget you
after all that we've been through
if you didn't notice you mean everything
i'm learning to love again
all i know is i'll be ok

thought i couldn't live without you
it's going to hurt when it heals too
it'll all get better in time
even though i really love you
i'm gonna smile because i deserve to

if i'm dreamin
i don't want to let it hurt my feelings
but that's the past, i believe it
and i know that time will heal it

since there's no more you and me
this time i let you go
so i can be free
and live my life how it should be

no matter how hard it is
i will be fine without you

jealousy

jealousy leads to the beginning of hate
i admit..i'm jealous
i jealous he'll find you wont find me
i jealous that he talk to you but never talk to me
i jealous that he treat you a friend but not me
i jealous that he'll say hi and bye to you
but not even look at me
i jealous
I jealous
I JEALOUS


this will be the last time i talk about him
hopefully i can do that
i just want to be your friend
but why is it so hard
i'm just in front of you but you can treat me as invisible
yea..just leave without any sign
okey..im the one thinking too much
i know


i've changed
since the day i met you
i study
coz you
i jog
coz you
i happy
coz you
i unhappy
coz you
i worry
coz you
i care
coz you
everything coz you

i really never realize how mean you can be
i hope i never can see how mean you could be

anyhow..
waiting will be the habit of my life
i'll keep it up
and no one can change my mind

we're just friend

finally i met him
yea..we had a short conversation
he's just so generous that he willing to accompany me to send my friend home
thanks friend for giving me this chance to have some time with him
very very short conversation
thank you so much that you really take me as your friend
but from what i saw in your eyes
is not just friend
i know you dont want to talk about this matter
i'm glad that i can control myself
i didn't grab you at that moment
sure you'll hate me if i do that
i will never mention this in front of you anymore
thank you for your caring
thank you for everything
i love you, friend



*i promise to wait you
and i really will*

time passed by

i know its been some time
but there's something in my mind
i haven't been the same
since the day you left
you said you needed time
but all i found was an empty place
the only thing i learnt
is that i needed you desperately

where do broken hearts go?
can they find their way back into love?
if somebody loves you
will they always love you?
i looked into your eyes
and i know
you still cares for me

no matter how i try
you're always on my mind
if you're back here with me
i'll never let you go

absent

i'm tired with your absence
i'm tired with the absence of my friends
maybe i'm the absentee
but i really cannot bind with this kind of life
i wish i can do something now
to make me more happier
okey..i'm not unhappy
but i'm just...not happy


i wish i can be more selfish
think for myself more than others
i wish time can turn back
turn back to my happiest moment
when is my happiest moment?
that is when my love one is all around me


you choose to leave me when i needed you most
you choose to ignore me when i'm most unhappy
you choose to leave me alone when i'm lonely
you choose a road that i dont hope to take


my future my choice
your future your choice
but my happiness
is your choice
you let go my happiness
and that's the reason i'm in sadness now
i'm not blaming you
i really not blaming you
i respect the choice
i respect you


promises that have made
might not be fulfill
but it will remain in my mind
not to force you to fulfill
but to leave a memory for me


i dont know what happen
i'm just down
okey..i'm free
but no intension to do revision
i want to sleep
but i just woke


if i'm given the choice
(a) sleep forever
(b) face the reality
i'll choose to sleep forever
as i said before
no one in this world is perfectly happy
none of us do
i wish i can sleep forever
need not face the reality
need not worry people know my sadness
need not worry how to make people happy
need not think what is he doing now
you might think i'm wrong
but that is just what i hope


yen and sian
you sure will ask me not to think so much
no worries
i'm not thinking too much
i'm just expressing myself
in a wrong way maybe
but i love you all most


yin and shir
i most seldom contact with both of you
it might be my fault
as everyone of us is busy with our life
but i still miss our life together
i miss you
and i love you


ck..
i know you've leave
yea..
i should accept the fact
and that's the reason i can walk till this stage
thank you for giving me all the sweetest memory
my happiness come from the memory that i have
but i scared it will fade away soon
i'll keep it as hard as i can
i hope i can wait till you come back
i heart you

friend

everyone is different
from the way they treat people
from the way they wish people to treat him
no one is the same
dont expect everything comes out exactly like what you think


what you see now might not exactly be like what you think
there are a lot of thing behind the scene that you dont know
everything you see now is just a fake outer look
inside will have something that you will never know


when you get the chance to know the inner part of someone
you wont get to know 100% of what it is
you'll definitely know about 10% of it
no one will really tells out their inner heart
im serious


when you know 90% of his heart
dont tell out to him
he'll be upset if he knows you know almost everything of him
everyone have a limit
everyone have different thinking
someone might love to tell out everything
but i can guarantee the everything is not everything
you get what i mean?
no matter how there is still some secret inside
no one knows
someone might dont love to tell at all
no point to force
if you really treat someone good
you wont force him to tell out everything
end up he feel unhappy inside but never tell out


when you treat someone good
you dont expect him to treat you as good as how you treat him
everyone's thinking not same
the definition of good from your point of view is not the sane as from his point of view
he might think that he treat you already hyper good
but you might think that he treat you like nothing
everyone is not the same
so dont mind so much about how people treat you


everyone in the world will change as well
and you cant expect him to change as you wish
he have his own lifestyle
he have his life
he have his friend
you can be a part in his life
but you will never can change his life



last phrase for today's blog
'appreciate other's differences, and others will appreciate yours'

holiday

hoho...holiday..
soon only..
2 weeks more..
then i'll have my holiday..
eiks..
longing for my holiday..
tired le staying here for so long..
really wanna go back to my hometown..
dont know how am i going to stand when im in aus next year!


im going back to ipoh again this thurs.
ok..no deny that im going back for some reasons.
but i just really wanna go back and leave here.
here seems make me tired..sometimes..
but luckily..there is a friend.
always being there for me.
yea...take care of me very much.
thanks dear..!!!
thank you so much for everything!!!
but dont treat me too good.
i'll feel very very guilty that i never pay out anything for you!





IPOH...!!!!
IM COMING BACK!!
WAIT FOR ME!!!!

leave?

seriously leaving?
ok..im down..
really joining?
i dont know how i feel now.
confuse?
i dont know im down or what!
seriously dont know!
ok..
i need someone to talk to.
but talk bout what?
there'e nothing to talk about.
im happy that he take me as fren
but what about he's leaving?
im trying hard to let go..
trying hard to take it easy
but..what i do when i get to know.
im down..
yea..im down..
arghhhh..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


hey...thanks for treating me as friend.
all the best to you.
take care
and do come back for me.
if possible!
i love you

my weekends

again im not blogging over the weekends..
i really love IPOH lots..
i went back almost every weekend..
and this week will be the second week that i wont be going back to Ipoh.
sad case..

lets see what had happened..

friday night..
i went back to Ipoh.
for my band competition.
i mean....just as an audience.
but i support my band 100 + 100%
seriously....
and..there's another reason why i go for the competition.
i think some of you might know.
keep it private and confidential..haha..!! =P
after the competition..
sian, yen, joyi, my sis n I went yumcha..
at horoscope cafe..
i love the shop..
is full of my favourite - - - PURPLE!!!!
went home around 1a.m.
such a long time never been out till so late..
but sadly he wasn't there.

saturday
early morning.
wake my sis and prepare her to school.
i went breakfast with my mum.
at.....i forgotten..
haha..oh ya..i got back my car..
nice..damn shinny..is looks exactly like a new car..
changed bonnet..changed front light..
repaint a bit bit..and it cost 4000++
wow.....drop glasses...
luckily my mum never scold me..=D
then i went to change my tyre..
again changed 2 front tyre..
exp exp...$$$ flew away.
then went jusco with my mum n sis...
had lunch..ate something fat..later show you in my pics..
later that night went dinner..
where again...??? forgotten..
oh no..i'm getting older and older..
cant even remember where i had dinner..!!!

sunday..
early morning had breakfast.
went to dye my hair..!! violet red..!!!
was shocked by the results..
haha..but..overall..not bad..
a big change..!!!
after that..went lunch..
at...forgotten again..
aiks...then..sad case..
leave from Ipoh to KL..
back to my lonely place lonely life..
reached KL around 5pm..dropped my friends then i went to Sook Foon's house..
first time going there..but i can find the way easily..
told you..im not that DUM!!! XD
after buying things and had dinner..
i went home..
ok..seriously..her house damn big.
haha..and she told me..
her car and the land beside her house..
is she kutip one.
haha..damn funny...lame la you..haha!!!
she teached me the way back to my house..
but i managed to find a cheaper and nearer way..
wakaka..im genius!

monday morning..
eh...feel funny..
people shock a bit bit when saw my hair..
haha..but i love my hair now..!!!!
ok..tomorrow no class..!!!
good news..
but bad news....
i need work super duper hard for my finals..
aiks....
hey guys...good luck and all the best to all of you!!!!
i just wake up..
not long ago..
statement from my mum..
'you and your sis..lazy bump..sleepy head'
haha...funny...never expect that from her
love you lots mum!!!!

erm..think that's all for now..
see ya guys soon..
muacks muacks..!!!

Sook Foon and I..in noodle station i think..

if i'm not mistaken..

during the band competition..who's that beside??

haha...kkj..funny guy..great answer from him when you asked serious question..!

me and my dear sian..ei..seems never take pic with yen..

taa..daa...my school band...first to perform..GREAT!!!

during yum cha..yen, joyi, sian and me..! we chose the right table..is just infront of LEO..that's me...

lunch that i had mentioned. milk and chocolate toast. fattening. but love it! with black glutinous.fattening again. but LOVE it!

pic taken today! nice? my violet red hair..!comment from my sister.."you look like HK ppl"...is there any difference with malaysian?

presentation day

today i had 2 presentation in a day.

haha..i was so nervous..

until im so cold and was shivering before the presentation..

you know what? i was like going to faint during the presentation..

luckily i still can tahan till the end..

i feel extremely tired after the presentation..

i dont know why..

hahaha..

anyway..although my presentation not the best.

but i do enjoy myself and i spent a special day with my college mate in M floor..

haha..

cannot deny that Melissa Wong really looks nice today...

and i had a nice time with my dear..

she really cares me a lot..thank you dear..!!!

i've not been uploading photos for ages..

let me upload some now...

this is the only group photo we took on YED..

we took this pic in noodle station while celebrating sook foon's birthday..

nick & me..oh no..i look like aunty..!!!

Qi Long and Sook Foon..keke..think of something..

Qi Long and Hanyin..this 3 pics related..something funny happens...

haha...the funnist pic today..those who know...dont laugh la..

this is the board of our presentation..cant see clearly..aiks..

Melissa Chan, Melissa Wong and Sook Foon..nice to have a friend like you all..

our group photo for today....!

haha...there's something i feel like telling...

there is a poor guy...being pulled to take pictures with 3 girls...

haha...funny..funny..i dont know why...

just...*blush*

ei......very paiseh le suddenly take pic..

oh no oh no...

guys...dont treat me like that la..

i cannot tahan one..hahaha...

anyway..thanks guys for giving me a happy time..

haha...

HaPpY BiRtHdAy

my dearest sian..
happy birthday to you..
your birthday this year meant a lot to me..
coz i have 2 big big presentation today..
i damn scared le...
hahaha..
i scared coz im very very very poor in presentation..
sian sian...wish me luck..as your luck today will be very very good..!!!!

*you are my everything that i wanted
we were meant to be suppose to be but we lost it
i have our memory so close to me but it just fade away..
all the time i am pretending..so much for a happy ending*

i love you yong yong
*this is what she forced me to write..!!!
XD

happy + sad

first of all..
i want to wish my dear - Sook Foon

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!
actually her birthday was yesterday..
but i never blog yesterday so it became belated wishes...

i had a party last night,
at my friend(Phooi Sian)'s house..
it was an enjoyable night and i had fun with KKJ..
haha...love him damn much..he's just so funny!!!!
besides..i get to spend time with my buddies is the most important thing that night..
thank you guys...for bringing happiness to my life..
love you all lots..
muacks..!!!

last night and this morning..
i did something stupid..
i asked him the same question..
and i get the same answer..

last chance..??? NO WAY..!!!
*im not love you as last time*
*feelings change easily and fast*
*future..no future*
*no..*
*No*
*NO..!!!*
ok..answer and answers..
hurt and hurts..
injury and injuries..
what am i talking about..

*injuries that are hidden, will be the injury that never be cured...*
i just got that hidden injury..
no one notices..
no one sees..
yea..all those hurts..
but..im still waiting..
im waiting..

i think i shouldn't be expressing all these here.
but i got no one to talk to..
i got no one to ask..
i just wish to see him..
i will go wherever he goes..
as my hobby..and to fulfill my dreams..
next saturday suppose is my happiest day..
but i got no chance to have it..
im losing it..

anyway..sad thing..throw away..
*as if i can*
happiness will come to me..
*if there is miracle*

my dear friends...
i love you guys..
muacks..

another new life

so there is another new life for me..
haha...
and it seems to be a better and happier life..
yea..i choose to let go..
but anyhow..
im still waiting..
*so that doesn't seems to be letting go, right?
ANYTHING LA....DOESN'T MATTER!!!!!


im looking forward the arrival of the 14th of june..
and also the 22nd of june..
14th of june will be the birthday celebration for both my best buddies..
haha..
yin's birthday will be on the 11th of june and sian's birthday will be on the 22nd of june..
haha....yea..really looking forward to that..
as i really hope to enjoy my night with them..
hahaha...
excited le........^_^
and i know 14th of june will be my dear-Sook Foon's birthday..
i wont forget about that dear..
hahaha...

and about 22nd of june..
i wont tell you all anything about that..
it is the most important date in my life..
wont tell all of you and dont ask me about that..
hahahahaha....
syok sendiri here...aiks...

i was sick after the yed..
oh ya...i never mention bout yed also..
nvm la..
none of you interested in it i think..
haha..

okok..that's all..
im just crapping here..
im here to make something that waste ur time..
haha..
wasting your time reading my blog..
haha..
night everyone...!!!

help me!

water paip opened.
since 5 something.
till now.
how to repair it?
can anyone help me?
is there any plumber out there?
and i think there is only one plumber who can help me.

but that plumber really has leave forever.
he'll never fix my paip again.
he'll never come and help again.
he just left.
yea...he left.
he resigned...he's bored of doing this job.

the main reason..
is with me..
i always spoil my water paip..
i always pressurize the plumber who is so important to me.
i always never appreciate my plumber when he was always there for me.
and now when he's gone, i dont know how to fix tha paip on my own.
i really dont know how.
i couldn't find him back,
coz he really feel frustrated of this job.
and it's all my fault.
i have to blame myself...for making all this happen.


mr. plumber, can you please come back to me?
my water paip need you..most importantly..i need you.
hope that mr.plumber will have a look at this.
mr.plumber. i really do need you. i love you.

i'm down

does anyone notice that the previous post is a little weird?
especially at the ending..it wasn't type by me!
is that fellow who keep on kacau me..!!
haha..anyway..he's a nice guy..and i promised him to control my voice when i laugh..!!


i've not been updating again for a few days as i really dont have the mood.
so i met with an accident last friday when i was on my way back to Ipoh.
no further info about this.


i saw you that night.
you just caught my sight as usual.
as you know, you are real tall.
i miss you much, do you know?
when i see you, i dont even dare to look at you.
i wish so much that i could see your face and finding the smile that i used to see everyday last time.
how come everything changed to be like that.
you know what i feel, right?
i know what you're thinking.
you just leave me for that stupid reason.
i really really couldn't let go.

i miss everything of us.
i miss the time we're in the same car.
especially when you're driving.
you look super serious, and that is when i feel most bahagia.
although we never talk much.
but i love the way you smile, and the way treat me.
although we always quarrel,
but i got no intention to ruin our relationship.
there is just too many things happening these while.
i wish so much that you could be by my side.
i've been keep holding on.
i'll keep holding on till the end of my life.


can you come back as soon as possible?
can you? i really dont want to be like this anymore.
i just wanna be with you.
anything i can do, i'll do, just to have you with me.
P.L.E.A.S.E come back.


i'll keep holding on.
and when you're back,
i'll never let you go again.

I.L.O.V.E.U