a week after

i've not been updating my blog as my sister came down to KL with me since last sunday.
so i basically dont have computer to use as she 'rampas' my computer!!!
i have a nice time spending with my sister here.
and i really dont have the time to think of 'something'...
THANK YOU LUI LUI!!!!

let's talk about the whole week briefly..
sunday..
reached kl by 2 somthing..
we went to sunway and my sister beg me for ice skating..
so..we spent 1 and half hour on ice skating..
after that, we went for dinner at Dragon-I..
my favourite place..!! =)
there are photos taken..but will upload in the next blog..!!!
after that..we sent our grandma to Cheras, her friends' house.
she stay overnight there for 2 days.

monday, i went to coll as usual.
my sister stayed at home.
and i was so worried that she's alone.
i called her but she didn't pick up the phone..>_>
and when i got home..i found out that she just woke up..!!
and..rather online than returning my call..!
what kind of sister is this..!!
)=
so i brought her out during my 2 hours break.
then i put her in the comp lab and let her do her homework and online there,
while waiting for my class to end.
after coll, i went to 1 Utama with her.
we bought something..^_^...
and she used up all my cash!
then we went home and had salad that night!

the next day, i go college. and then i blog this.
okay, me wanna go now oh. love love muaks muaks.
bye.
-melissastolemyname-

Ipoh again

i'm in Ipoh again.
i cant stand not to come back ot Ipoh.
as i really love Ipoh more than anywhere else, except Japan!

i reached home yesterday just before the heavy rain falls.
the rain was horrible and was so windy.
the branches of trees can be seen all over the place, in the midle of the road, after the rain!
i never notice it was so heavy rain when i'm at home that day.
later that night, after sending my sister to tuition, i sent my grandma for some medical thingy.
then i accompany her there, waited for about half an hour, only we realize that lady is not going to come over as her husband was sick.
so we went home.
around 9.30pm, my mum, grandma and me went to fetch my sister.
then we went to the night market.
i miss the night market so much. the place that i always have fun with my friends and my loves one.
i saw him coincidently.
he slim down edi, =( how come never take good care of himself.....

i msg him that night and ask him out the next day.
he said he not sure and he said he'll msg me when he's free tomorrow.
so i spend my whole day today waiting for his msg.
but i didn't get any contact at all.
he broke promises.
you know how it feels when you wait and you get nothing in the end?
i wait wait wait..till evening..i saw him cycling around the housing area.
so basically he is damn free. just he dont want to see me!
ok..coincidently again he passed by my car,he saw me, and i saw him!
i msg him again, as i really dont understand.
i said, how come you break promises, you dont want to see me, at least just tell me that you're not free or what.
why just leave me like that without telling me anything?
and i beg him, i dont want to be like that.
you said you need time..i'll give you time.
give you all the time.
i'm really sorry to make you feel frustrated.
i'm sorry!
i'm really very sorry!
now i think, it might be better if you forget me.
it might be better if you really can swept me off your mind.

if i have a second chance to live, for sure i wont go to the same tuition centre!
for sure i wont let you meet up with me!
for sure i wont let you in love with me!
for sure i wont let you get hurt like now!
for sure i wont let you be sad!
if i have a second chance, i really wont let all this to repeat!

the whole day i'm not in mood.
i just really dont know why!
and i hope everyone can leave me alone!
i just want to be alone!
i want to be ALONE!!!

just to say, I LOVE YOU, forever!

song lyrics

i just came back after i met with my personal trainee.
owhh..he's cute..i mean not the look..but the way he entertain me.
so he's from east malaysia.
haha..feel bad when i said that can see that he's not local as his english is not the same.
seems like im criticize him..i dont mean that, Norman, okays?


when im on the way home, my mum called.
and i found out another thing that my family did to my mum.
WTH..they way too over..!!!
at the same time, i found out some lyrics that tells out my mind exactly..!

想念是会呼吸的痛　

它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛　

看你的信会痛　

连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛　

它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛　

恨不懂你会痛　

想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了　

多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了　

灵魂像飘浮著　

你在就好了

so this lyrics describe my feelings at this time.
hmm..i wish you will see this..but you dont know how to read chinese..
thought of translating it into english..
but the meaning doesn't exist that clear if i translate.
so i'll just leave it like this.


have a good night everyone

happy monthlyversary..!!

today is 22 May..
is my 11th monthlyversary(word created by me!)
i dont have the chance to wish him.
what a sad thing.
i really wish to be with him today.
next month will be ANNIVERSARY!
but i dont have the chance to celebrate.
the relationship edi ended with a full stop.
in my heart..it still'll go on. without any regret..without him by my side.
sounds foolish..but i'll wait for him.

anyone curious about him?
anyone wanna know about him?
i seems never mention about his things since the first blog.
should i describe a little bit of him?
okay..maybe you all dont have the intension to know.
but i'll just describe a bit bit about him.

* he is a ok looking guy(look not so important,right?)
he is tall(this is important)
he is loving and caring(to others i dont know, but to me, he is!)
he'll think for my good
he always ask me to chase for my dream(he knows my dream well)
he made decision for me when i cant make any decision on my own.
he is really good to me and i dont know what more i can tell.

i just know that I LOVE HIM

he wont be coming back for me.
as soon ken says, no one can predict the future.
but..more or less..we know a bit of it.
maybe he will..there's still a possibility..
that's why..i'll wait.
i dont mind waiting.
as when we're together, i wait for his reply.
wait for him back from work.
wait for him back from playing basketball.
wait for him back from yum cha.
wait for him to wake up.
and now..i have to wait for him to come back for dont know how many years.
and maybe im wasting my time but i just want to wait.


haha...craping here as im damn boring!
today will be going to meet my personal trainee(Norman, if im not mistaken)
wakaka...you'll see a fitter me and a slimmer me in few months time!

i never sleep last night.
i think most of them watch football till late night.
but im the one who wake by their screaming.
i could here screaming from the left and right of my condo.
even upstairs and opposite.
wow..seems like the whole blog of my condo is doing the same thing at this late night.
i was so sleepy now..!!!

going to class now.
accounting..BORING!!!
take care..!

mOodY

as usual i went to school earlier.

and today i was so tired.

i dont know why..i just keep on slept off in class.

i shouldn't be so tired..as yesterday..i slept for dont know how many hours..

is like..from 3pm to 9 pm..then 11pm till 6am this morning..

is like..almost the whole day im sleeping.

sleeping is just the best thing to do when you're in a bad mood.

especially when you have things that keep on pop out in your mind.

and those are the things that you cannt accept and you wish that i wont happen.

there are a lots of thing that are non-predictable.

and there are a lots of things that are out of our control.

and i found out that there is a phrase that is very useful..

that is 'NO MOOD'....

someone told me..

no mood..

and all the responsibility..all the memories..and all the happiness..just push it all away..

and that's the most worst reason i've get.

i really dont get it.

what's the no mood about.

and..i really dont understand..is the no mood got so big influence..?

why is he so not in mood..is it my problem..?

maybe i shouldn't think bout this matter anymore..

but..i really just dont understand..why is it so...

anyway..now i really lost interest in any guys..

and....i dont think i'll bother bout that stuff for quite a time..

i need time..i need long time..hopefully i can put down and let go..

you wont be suffer for long..as i promise myself wont contact you anymore..

wishing you a happy life..

no matter what..you still own a place in my heart...

i feel more and more lonely now.

i've lost everyone..

including my best buddy.

all of them are busy with their own stuff.

and we seldom contact.

im more into myself.

my best buddy is my comp now.

no one else.

love you comp..!!!

*mature doesn't help in anything..!*

tired weekend

hmm..so i went back to Ipoh last thursday after i received the call..

and i never been free since then..

i went back and went to the funeral centre and stay there for whole day..

and on the saturday..everything was over..

hmm..is tiring..but is a memory...

not to say a sweet memory..but an unforgetable memory..

nothing much to talk about the funeral..

the purpose to blog today is more to express my feelings..

im not in good mood for few days...

one of the reasons was my great grandma..

i miss her..and i feel bad that i never see for the last time before she close her eyes..

im sorry laoma.....

another thing..i found out..

i really dont like that 'aunty'..

she's just so annoying...

and...im not sure whether she treat herself as a him or a her..

she's damn annoying....

ppl asking 3 man to stand in front..

and i really dont understand what's the purpose she's standing in front..

and what she did just never show any respect to the families..

she's way to much to treat our family like that..!!!

i msg him that day..

and....how come a person can change so fast..

no more love and become hate...

how come..from loving..to cool..

is that the way to love someone..

and is that what i deserve...

i thought i can deserve better..but how come this is what i got at last..?
i agree with what he says..

its not end of world without him..

but does he know..the life is suffering..?

from the way he talks..from the way he explain..

does he know it hurts...and does he know........................................

it doesn't matter...

although i cant accept the fact..

but i'll let go..

and..i told him..no need come back to me..

but no matter how long..i'll still wait..

and i believe...he'll be back..

hopefully....

yen..no worry about me..

im ok..im really ok..

everyone also have something that they cant help.

and dont feel bad and sad about that..

it really doesn't matter ok?

i love you yen..

and thank you so much for your concern..

let's see some photos..

it doesn't look nice...

and is randomly uploaded..

this one took the week before...having dinner after jogging..

took this the week before also..and..i looks sleepy...that's how i look like after crying....

we have supper after the funeral..my mum in white and im in red..coz my greatgrandma was 103 years old..

the last day of funeral..breakfast before going out..

last night..having dinner at the restaurant beside 'breeze cafe'..love the toilet..

is air conditioned..and..i love the colour tone...

took this morning..it's wesak day and we went to the temple before i come back to kl..

i like the little buddha..is cute...

the candle..is nice right..? can you spot my name..?

so that's all for tonight...

hopefully i could get into sleep and be alright tomorrow morning..!

good morning

morning guys..
hmm..its 8.25a.m. and im so boring in college waiting for my 9a.m. class..
today's weather so nice..
and i miss my bed so much..
everyday come to college so early just coz need to find parking..
aiks...stupid parking lot...=(

today is not a nice day..
as my mood is not that good..
early in the morning i saw something i expected which i dont want to see..
just receive a call...from my uncle..
sad news..
not going college tomorrow..
need back to ipoh tonight as something emergency..
*greatgrandma..rest in peace..*

i dont have the mood to blog..
but i got nothing to do as waiting for my programme director to finish her class..
yea..my friends..not to worry me..
i'll be ok..
and my elder sister..dont be down for so long..
you stil have lots of thing to do...

good day friends..
take care


*it suffer the most when i wanted to see but i cant.
it's pain when i heard about you..i miss you..and i cant have you..*